Sunday, September 19, 2010

Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman

Hi everyone!!

I know you're all probably wondering why I would entitle this weekend's post the title of a Britney Spears song. While I loved Britney back in the late 90's and early 00's, I never really understood the meaning of this song. How could you not be a girl, but yet, not be a woman either? It boggled my mind.

It wasn't until this weekend that I truly understood what she was talking about. My family was coming up for SMC Parent's Weekend and I was really excited to see them. I couldn't wait to hug them and let them know how great SMC was going!!

I'm the youngest of my family, and while no one ever treated me like a baby, I had grown up being every one's little girl. While I was always responsible, I always had my mom and dad there to come home to and talk about my day, and have a home cooked meal made with love.

At SMC, I am this independent young woman who goes out at midnight to get a milkshake and fries at the Knight Stand, (Our little cafe at SMC- it is a MUST to go there if you visit :) plans to go grocery shopping or organizes movie nights with my floor mates, choose when and where I have dinner, and studing in the library until closing time with my great friends and study buddies, Taylor, Liz, and Hannah.

This weekend... I was confused.

I know this is probably sounding odd, since it was only a weekend and I was faced with this huge amount of confusion. However, once I said good bye to my family on Sunday, and wished them luck on the 6 1/2 hour trip back to New York, I realized something...

Britney Spears was wasn't quite right. I am still a girl, but I am too a woman.

I will always be my parent's little girl and I would never change that for the world. However, I love who I am at SMC and the woman I am becoming. I realized that I didn't have to choose which family I was happier with or person I wanted to be. I could be just as happy being both!!

I am so lucky to have a family as wonderful as mine. I am also lucky to have my SMC family, who has welcomed me so profusely and made me one of their own. Both have changed my life in great ways, and I couldn't have asked for more generous, loving people in my life.

No matter whether you're so excited to go off to college or are scared to be going off to some place brand new, I have seven words for you: It is okay!! You are not alone.

You will just now have two families who will love and support you :)

I hope everyone has had a wonderful weekend, and please, never hesitate to send me a tweet on Twitter or ask me a question on Formspring. I am always here to help :)

Until next time, I send you my best wishes!!
Alex

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